#Im sorry if none of this makes any sense

[mahikamihan]

I agree with you 100% about Foolish's relationship to risk and death. I think that he takes on a vital role as the pillar on the server. The others lean on him for help, be it building, providing resources or protection from mobs. Through learning his necessity to Tina in the cave after his first death, he realises this and takes on the heavy burden. While he was the initial chaos bringer, challenging the pillagers and pestering Tina, he is forced to become the level-headed and unmoving one. To ignore the pranks and the stealing- to guarantee the wellbeing of his friends.

Not only was it the death itself that sparked his change but, like you said, the extent to which Tina had to break the rules- going against her strict code that she had restated again and again. In this moment he sees past her strict server dictator facade, not as the nuisance of a neighbour or subject for teasing but as someone who needs him.

I think that this feeling of being needed is what keeps him going, kind of like how he's a 'good' pirate. More important than loot is his want to protect and provide, to please others and be looked up to.

-🦀

also thoughts on potential pyromaniac tina? Miyoungs menacing turn? Foolish's quickness to forgive Tina?

Sorry if this answers comes in late! I’ve dug myself down the stardew rabbithole and wasn’t checking my accounts as fast. More below!

Pyromaniac Tina: I think there’s a few funny lore potential to tinakiArson. XD I especially love that she started panickingly placing pumpkins when she realized what she had done to Foolish’s ship. It’s kind of like giving into the allure of fire— especially knowing now that she is playing part-demon of some kind. Nothing wrong with a little arson here and there, let a lil feminine rage out every now and then. And Tina especially, since she’s been through increasingly stressful situations recently— adding miyoung to the server, the unbalanced trade deals between foolish, miyoung and her, trying to meet her soul quota, etc. she has a lot on her plate! funny how she backtracks immediately though, like she only processes the guilt of her actions after the fact

Menacing Miyoung: menacing miyoung is always my favorite! idk why or how, but i feel like she always had that kind of mysterious mischievous aura around her. Like you can’t really tell what she’s planning to do next which makes her a surprising addition to foolish’s crew! She brings a little teeth to the adventures, spices things up alot! I like hoe even foolish gets pretty wary around her, so she stands as an equal crew member to him 💪🏼

Foolish’s forgiveness: I don’t think it was quick at all! He drove a pretty hard bargain, from taking a pet(?) → burning one of her own pets → burning her house -> having her burn someone else’s build, especially when he knows how hard builds could be. Character-wise, I’m interpreting it as like, “boiling the frog pot slowly” method of getting what he wants (if you get what i mean!). He thought through how he was gonna get his retribution, I’m just as surprised that Tina went through with it. I think for that, he was pretty fair in logic, and he got to see a lil fire up close XD so it was all good on his end, he was having a good time! poor tina though , she had to learn the consequences of her actions the hard way :') he really put her through the ringer when he knows how bad she is at making quick decisions

do you have any thoughts on the recent happenings personally, 🦀? I love the horse-breeding arc that miyoung, foolish and sam went through, so wholesome ^0^

[lesbiangiratina]

The nitpicker arrives. I dislike it when people say testament has “transcended gender”, its absurdly common for something that hasnt been said officially. First off i assume people are mixing up daisuke’s quote about them “transcending humanity”. He essentially says testament is sexually androgynous due to not being human, being something above humanity, which really is not an uncommon idea. Their early coding revolved around the conflation of sex and gender, saying something was going on with them while still considering them to be a man. What i think was less typical though is daisuke’s obvious very genuine interest in depicting testament androgynously in general, and well that intention was fully realized with making them explicitly agender in strive. And really, while its VERY interesting history, that previous statement shouldnt be applied to testament as of strive. Riku ozawa said outright that the team wanted to change how they handled testament’s gender, seemingly referencing the phrasing of that daisuke quote and proposing something new in its place. Developer backyard vol 10 says testament lives “without the concept of gender”, phrasing that has a lot less implied Otherness and lack of agency than “transcending humanity”, especially with referring to gender as a concept. Admittedly this is still attached to them being a gear, possibly still with implications about their body, but its pretty clear that the japanese fandom’s idea of testament’s body being related to their androgyny has changed with these statements and i’ll trust them on that. It was never about identity before strive, i think a lot of people dont really get that. Theres a reason for the shift in phrasing alongside the shift in their portrayal.

Just wanted to ramble about this. Ummm my bad. I love that daisuke quote, i’ve tried to do as much as i can to research it, to find more information and proof of its existence (DID YOU KNOW. Theres currently no actual archival of it’s origin. It was allegedly in a mail-only arcsys fanclub newsletter, probably from the first 4 volumes in 1998/99. We only have volume 15 currently. But it’s existence is fortunately kind of undeniable at this point. I wont ramble further.), but it drives me crazy seeing people both misquote it and incorrectly apply it to strive testament. Okay

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

okay sorry for the confusion yes he is. but he doesn’t wanna be

imagine if you got your brain stripped out but you had a magic failsafe in place so I guess instead of turning into a mindless drone you just reverted back into your child self And managed to stick around in your original form as a spectre so you could yell at your child self anytime your child self didn’t meet your expectations or do as good as they needed to to be as successful in life as you were.

that’s what’s going on. as far as I understand it and the jury’s still out on the details given the fact that no one else who got the same brain-wipe seems to be nearly as coherent and capable as him nor did they turn into actual children like he did. baby pep doesn’t like getting yelled at all the time and is being raised in a very different environment than original pep was so he’s not the same person emotionally but he’s basically just. if peps had to start over from babyhood, but with his adult self looking over him criticizing his every move to his face and his moms are all settled down together and domestic instead of volatile and mid break-up

[wormsontoast]

ok hmmm. brainstorming a mechs au right now. based off of my vague memories of the same thing last year. essentially the mechanisms as the magnus archives.

cause theres enough fics of like jonathan archivist is the lead singer of the mechanisms for some reason. and i think theres room for a bit more variety in the niche of tma and mechs crossovers

anyway most of what i have right now is very liable to change. like i think ivy is probaly gonna be the archivist for. obvious reasons. but raphaella would be an interesting pick since i can easily imagine her getting invested in Finding An Answers and coming out the other end no longer human. howevr raphaella could fit a lotta roles. shes the one i have the most amount of specific but contradictory ideas for. even jonny i can kinda see. less in an actual 'someone hired him for this' way and more he just wont accept anyone else as yhe head archivist

ok so one of the only things im really sold on is aurora being a web avatar. since in canon she like runs on spiders. not yet sure if shes anything resembling human or ever was. still dating nastya regardless.

the other thing i almost certainly have nailed down is carmilla being the previous archivist. i have her in my notes as "missing, ostensibly dead". their archival assistants definitely included nastya, scuzz (missing in action) & jonny, not sure abt the others. the cops think jonny killed them for her job but there isnt actually enough evidence to pin it on him. jonny does not dissuade this. there is absolutely zero chance he killed her.

[19871997]

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[raptureshots]

another. weird long Rant abt Frank Fontaine.. :-)

(NOTE: this is all just. pure speculation and from the perspective of. If Frank Fontaine was real. all fun and games here!!! i just like talking abt my fav characters okayy!!!!)

Frank spending so much just. time in Rapture definitely had some sort of effect on him and his outlook on his life. Frank at his core is a conman who lies and steals and assumes other identities, chances are hes always had to be ready to leave everything behind at any given moment.

I don't think he's ever stayed stationary for that long. he most likely never had the chance to, yknow? because of that he also probably was never able to build up a lot of meaningful relationships. he's never had a support system, no friends (besides Reggie, shout out), no family, all because he'll never know how long he'll be able to stick around.

Never holding a solid identity probably never did wonders for Frank either. He'd always have to change and adapt Topside, become a whole new person. but in Rapture he had time to actually explore himself. learn about his own likes and dislikes. actually gain some sense of self instead of what the situation called him to be. He had a chance to be normal, to actually live a simple life.

Being Atlas as well probably changed him lots too. Being a Revolutionary is tough, but also having to constantly keep up the front he put up as well? Yes, Frank is experienced and talented in what he does, but Atlas had SO MANY PEOPLE looking up to him and his ideals. Chances are, part of him fell to deep into the Con at some points. Causing himself unnecessary stress. Just so it wouldn't all fall apart.

Which. also makes me think about his Boss Form. It's called his "Atlas Form". Atlas. Form. Atlas the voice of the people. Frank Fontaine IS Atlas. Which I mean, yeah obviously but. there's sometimes so just. harrowing about him like that, being labeled as "Atlas" . its just so weird to think about, to me at least.

Frank Fontaine is just. such a convoluted character when you think about it deeply. anyways I'll shut up now (^_^)/

[13shapeshifters]

omg moony that fic ask game. write about your marine biologist for 15 and OR a red valley fic for 21

WAH. oh course..

15) I'll Rust With You - Steam Powered Giraffe

funny actually because that song is already associated with our ocs for me already (unsure if its on the playlist ?? might be). i just. Listens to a song and explodes you know.

"In the winter cold she kisses and vanishes despite my wishes I'll rust with you, I'll rust with every one of you Nostalgic nights have got me feeling it's all gone, gone, gone to rust" [...] "Baby, don't keep me waiting on this memory The years and tears have gone and turned you into ash, you see."

Finding it SO hard to find anything to say about the song and what i'd write for it because to me its sooo self explanatory but i need to remember that not everyone can look into my mind 24/7. It'd be a piece from my girl Nomine's POV set during their first big breakup. It's the losing someone you love someone who's the only person who Gets you is there even anything left in the world after that.

Also the line "I'll rust with you" just makes me a different type of insane when put into context of Nomine and Ónoma. Under normal circumstances i'd interpret it as a sweet "I'll grow old with you" but with them i'd rather have it as a "you're going down with me" 👍👍👍

[cerubean]

i regret to inform you all that my 5-year long boycott over the controversial dlc for dlc pack is over... im installing the rat-infested rabies stuff pack

[glsneeg-enthusiast]

it seems its my mutual against the entire population for something i thought we all knew and agreed on already

[meat-pvppet]

not to bitch and moan but im really starting to remember why i dont do original stories anymore

[clown-machine]

everyone experiences most of these to some degree just pick one to be mad at rn lol

[steelycunt]

do you have already some ideas for pride au s? i need to know what is going on in that blender that ur brain is. do u see him with high waisted levi’s and crop tops??? is he a total doormat for smiths enjoyer r??? i need to know more

hi omg yes! yes i do! s' deal is slightly different to r's, in that r has no parallel/does not correspond to any character in the original film, so i'm basically inserting him as a figure into the narrative (although as irrelevant as this is, to me he is. closest to bill nighy's cliff if cliff was a young man in the eighties xx), whereas s more or less fills the position that mark fills in the film. but other than that he is completely free 4 me to characterise and i think he will be so fun honestly! from the thoughts ive had so far hes sort of a mess of a guy at least to begin with. he is kind of moving at a hundred miles and hour + throwing himself into organizing this thing but if you were to slow him down and put him under a microscope hes uhhh. quite lost + lonely in a way. i expect it will not take him very long to become quite embarrassingly gone for r i think he will consider him the best thing since. sliced bread within hours of meeting him he is imagining them both as the two maidens of pompeii its. a really poor performance from him. he thinks r’s accent is sooo sexy every time he talks s is twirling his hair like omggggg. say that again or please elaborate please tell me more…please…..

also i am looking forward to dressing him up in fun outfits again because he is first and foremost my barbie i am just not sure what yet! i am not as familiar with the eighties as i am with the seventies in a lot of ways so. the setting and everything that comes with that will be really fun to research xx although i am struggling to decide on s' music taste!! r lends himself very well to eighties music i think i could build him a record collection easily (including the smiths sad but true) whereas. s seemed to fit better in the seventies :-/ i am not sure what hes listening to in the eighties apart from seventies records he hasnt let go of yet!! and despite the much more glaring aspects of this fic i have yet to turn my attention to frankly. deciding what silly little songs s wants to listen to is currently one of my main priorities xx

[fxggotclown]

it is girl scout cookie season again so i just wanna say if you buy girl scout cookies with the purpose of supporting girl scouts consider donating cash as well or instead bc very little of that money is actually made available to the troop. this is especially so if you live in a more rural area where the troops have no way to access the resources more of the money goes to (which was the case for my old troop) . on top of that buying cookies from the troop (as opposed to pre ordering them from a specific scout) doesn't help them reach their individual cookie selling goals for which they get prizes.

[qeyond]

I hope y'all know that every time you interact with my posts/tags I kick my feet in the air and giggle and blush and wiggle around so happily <3 <3 <3 <3

[stormyoceans]

mon, i’ve been wanting to text you since friday night, as soon as i finished ep9 but i’ve been so incredibly overcome with emotion, i just have not had the courage to process everything and put what i feel into words.

i have been bawling since the very start of the ep, mon. right from the night-&-day conflict-cause reveal, to the first time day realises he’s losing sight, to the intimate scene, to (of course) the final scene, i have literally been in tears, unable to process any of my feelings. hell, i couldn’t even watch the full ep from between my tears, but i’m too scared to go back and watch so soon. there are so many things i felt, so many thoughts i had that i wanted to share with you but i’m just so overwhelmed even as yet, and i just want you to know, that if ever my thoughts become a little bit more clear and my feelings a bit less overwhelming, you will definitely be the first to hear all i want to say (sorry to be a bother but you’re like one of the few people i can share the utter happiness that this show is for me and i really want to discuss ALL ABOUT IT with you, and get all your thoughts!! but i get so overwhelmed and am so random with being active on this app, ughh it’s so hard 😭😭😭😭😭)

i just wanted to share this one thought with you that i had while watching the ep though, because i know you’d appreciate it so damn much. this series feels like such a beautiful gift to all us fans from jimmysea and p’aof, mon. like the heart that has gone into this project and the sheer beauty that everyone involved has created feels like the best present one could ever ask for (🥹). truly, i have no words other than the fact that i have never, ever experienced anything like this ever before and i am truly so, so overcome with a myriad of emotions, half of which i can’t even name.

WELL FIRST OF ALL YOU’RE NEVER A BOTHER AND YOUR MESSAGES ALWAYS PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE AND MAKE ME INCREDIBLY HAPPY SO JOKES ON YOU SAM!!!!!!!!!!! YOU’RE ACTUALLY STUCK WITH ME NOW AND I WILL BE SITTING HERE PATIENTLY WAITING FOR YOUR THOUGHTS ON LAST TWILIGHT WHENEVER YOU’RE READY TO SHARE THEM

take all the time you need tho, i definitely understand feeling overwhelmed by this show and not being able to write down everything you want to say. and idk if im the only one experiencing this, but these past couple of months since last twilight started have been so surreal to me like. i haven’t even begun to process 13% of the things that happened in episode 9 or any past episode really and it’s already time for episode 10 tomorrow. we’ve waited for this show for a whole year and in two more weeks it’s already gonna be over and yet somehow im still stuck on the very first episode with so many things to say and so many emotions to deal with and so many thoughts i want to share with you all but it seems too late now except it’s not!!!!!! we’re still here talking about vice versa after almost two years, we’re gonna be here talking about last twilight long after it ends!!!!!!

and to me this does feel like a show that you need to let sink in and settle a little before you can fully appreciate it, not because it’s overly complicated or controversial, but because it strikes something so deep into your soul that you need to watch it multiple times to unravel all its beauty. the feelings you get when you experience something for the first time can’t ever be repeated, but there is new understanding to be found in all the times after it. like you said, even just by watching episode 9 you can tell that there’s so much love and so much care that went into this show, and then you watch the bts videos and you see how hard everyone worked to make this happen, how the entire crew climbed that quite literal mountain just to deliver something special to us

i think that’s why despite all of my fears and worries about the ending that i can’t quite shake off, im also trying really hard to have faith in everyone involved in the show, because it’s a product of love and i will always be so deeply grateful to them for gifting it to the world

[xamaxenta]

It’s difficult to not feel discouraged sometimes when your partner is also an artist and happens to be faster than you in every conceivable way

This doesn’t bother me often because everyone is different and comparing production time and skill against each other or anyone is detrimental mostly and its ok to have your own workflow

but it does weigh on me vaguely sometimes sometimes that she can finish 2-3 full coloured pieces within a week and ive been painfully scratching out the same number but theyre only sketches that ill never revisit within a month

None of this actually matters in the long run, it just makes me feel bad on occasion